1 Heart

Afraid is not the right term,

Perhaps, blocked it is

With two crossed swords.

Guard is up

When guard is not up.

Confusion is my second name

My contradictions I cannot tame.

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Love wants me not

Other times, love is all around me.

I pull at the same pace as I push,

But can never let go

I become love at the same pace as I become despair.

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My hand softly fondles the skin of your cheek

Pulls away

Goes back to weeping

Love wants me not

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Warm sadness

Cold happiness

In blurry emotions,

I realize

Doubt, I am not

Love is all I am certain.

Nida 𝔅.  🖤