If you could think of a happy memory, what would that be? When I mean a happy memory I mean those moments where we felt truly happy. A type of happiness that makes us feel complete. The type of happiness that makes all the rest dissapear. It makes us smile on the inside and also on the outside.
I find it difficult to express what exactly the state of happiness is for me…I think I can’t quite find the right words. There’s a memory though, that makes me think about what it means to be truly happy. In my life and experience happiness is always associated with authenticity. The moments I was able to be myself there was happiness. Something that took me a long time to understand. And the memory I want to share brings me back to the most special holiday of all. Every halloween holiday I’ve had the luck to be part of.
Sometime around the end of last year I was sitting outdoors listening to some music when I sensed a scent that was just so familiar. The wind kept blowing and I would sense the smell again. I immediately knew it was exaclty like every halloween season. As weird as it sounds it was the wonderful smell of halloween. It reminded me of everything from back then, the smell of candies, the costumes, the decorations my mom used to use, of all the delicious food and especially my favorite costume I loved. It made me think of that one time of the year where I would feel completely happy and amazed with the whole atmosphere. It was more like an inner feeling of happiness. I didn’t really need to express it, I just needed to feel it on the inside. It was like feeling home. Halloween for some reason always gave me that feeling of being home.
Halloween represented everything I’ve always wanted to be and never had the courage to be when it was over. It really feels like the veil that separates our world and the other side gets thinner. The gates open and the other side can be seen by all of us. So the little weird witch can be as weird as she wants because on this time of the year she’s not weird at all, she is part of that world. All of those who feel weird or outcast can feel at home because there is no such thing as being inadequate. Halloween is for expressing ourselves just the way we want. And the best part is…halloween doesn’t need to be over. ^^
Yes, Nightmare Before Christmas is still one of my favorite movies, it is so nostalgic. I remember watching this as a kid, I had the video tape and it was by far the movie I loved the most. I can relate to the characters of this story still to this day, especially Jack. And Sally. And…maybe… the little bug Santa killed >.<
“Oh, somewhere deep inside of these bones
An emptiness began to grow
There’s something out there, far from my home
A longing that I’ve never known”
Jokes aside, one of the things I really like about this story is that it’s interesting how Jack seemed to be struggling a bit and confused about his identity. Trying to be so much like Santa and do things that just didn’t have much to do with his true identity. It was a learning experience for him, so in the end he could see that we was actually the Pumpkin King. And be proud for being himself and embrace his own reality. Sally was the only one that truly understood him, she did try to show him he didn’t have to change at all. But I think she also knew he would have to find the answer for himself, the thing that was missing within him. Another example where the answer was not far from his home, but with him the whole time. He just had to go on that adventure to be able to see it, a lot similar to the story of Santiago.